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In A Relationship

In Life, Music, Personal, Rant on April 21, 2012 by lexie-chan Tagged: , , , , , , , , , , , , , ,

Let me start by saying that if I would ever get a boyfriend, Sidney would definitely be the one I would like to be with. I know nobody really cares but for a finicky person such as myself, that’s still something else coming from me.

I’ve never had that kind of strong ‘attraction‘ with anybody else after Jessy era.But it was just so different when it comes to him. The connection I felt when I was spending time with him were nothing short but sweet memories. I was even to the point that I was already soooo delusional :3

Thank gawd, I have the most amazing best friend who pulled me out of my own distorted fantasies and told me that I shouldn’t be expecting too much. I shouldn’t blur the distinctive line of friendship that separates the both of us. ASSUMPTIONS truly fucked me up.

 

 

Although it was still a shock considering the fact that I NEVER COULD HAVE IMAGINED he was even attracted with anybody (not that he tells me anyway but still!!!), I am surprisingly not as affected as I would have expected I would be. Of course I can’t stay calm hence I’m writing this journal entry, but I don’t know… I thought it would be much worse for me… Still, I feel like nothing’s working for me right now. After I finally decided to check my FB, the first thing that I saw was his status update. Then my sister ate my Taho. And then Renz posted a shitty facebook message about BoA on my wall! Like seriously??!!?!?!??!!! I haven’t even been awake for more than an hour and all these bullshit??!!?!??!!!?! Ugh! And I don’t know why but I even started listening to all my senti songs… And at this exact moment, the song that’s playing is: “It’s Okay Even If It Hurts” by Seohyun. Appropriate much?

HAHA!!! Despicable Me :3

Funny how when I just opened my facebook page when I woke up, the song that was playing in the background as I was reading the dreadful post was “Almost“. So as I lament my broken heart, I shall make this my current theme song until I get over this weird feeling. Please read the lyrics attached. LOL!

Almost

[Verse 1]
Can you tell me
How can one miss what she’s never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that’s too late
And how could I really mean the words I’m bout to say

[Chorus]
I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it’s impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

[Verse 2]
I cannot believe I let you go
Or what I should say I should’ve grabbed you up and never let you go
I should’ve went out with you
I should’ve made you my boo boy
Yes that’s one time I should’ve broke the rules
I should’ve went on a date
Should’ve found a way to escape
Should’ve turned a almost into
If it happened now its too late
How could I celebrate a love that wasn’t real
And if it didn’t happen why does my heart feel

[Chorus]
I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it’s impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

[Verse 3]
(sometimes I wanna rub ya, some nights I wanna hug ya)
And you seem to be the perfect one for me
You (some nights I wanna touch ya but tonight I wanna love ya)
You’re all that I ever wanted
And you’re my everything yes its true
Boy its hard to be close to you
My love
I know it may sound crazy
But I’m in love with you

[Chorus]
I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it’s impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there (sometimes I wanna rub ya)
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce (but tonight I wanna love ya)
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said its impossible to miss when you never had
Never, never almost had you (but tonight I wanna love ya)

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